August 19
Endlessly Moving Maps
I try to survive by memorizing the chaos. I do well up to five layers deep and then
lose it, as the details become too great.
I am staking my life on my ability to track the patterns in a storm
while at the same time treading water. I
think this skill kept life and breathe in me for many years, but now I fear
I’ll drown in this roiling mass. I must
touch down my tender toes and learn to walk this twisting path and keep a pace
with this spinning world. Everything moves
and I am overwhelmed. I have forgotten
my flesh and blood nature; have mistaken myself for a stone, one which dare not
roll, one which has no part in this endlessly moving map.
Be honest with your toes
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SATISFACTION
Satisfaction is like a marble in my pocket.
Formed when correctness was still red hot
And my sponsor rolled my mind until I was whole.
I sigh and square my shoulders
I know I am up to any task.
I am skilled with my tools and know well the
talents
Of my intimates and helpmates.
I am not invincible but I am capable.
I value who and what I am today.
I sleep the sleep of a person
Not a hostage or captor, I am me.
I have a marble in my pocket
And it reminds me of the world.
I have a world within me
Knowing how to live with that
Is a great satisfaction.
You are reading selections from More Sober on the Way to
Sane and Lines From My Life by Sherrie Theriault
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