October 17
Bowman Beach
The swirl with the flash of teeth that I backed away from
turned out to be dolphin, but that didn’t make me safer, strangers are
strangers no matter who their PR team is.
When I am out of my element fear grows long leads and I am bound by
these limits. Who I am under new
circumstances is a discovery I make as time flies by. Can I swim and play with exuberance or will I
drown trying to catch up? I am able and
disabled, the line is tied from the back and I don’t know its length. I unreel as much slack as I can and test my
reach, but still I must keep my wary eye and be careful of the deep.
Think of something nice to say about a pigeon
*
MISS DIRECTED
I called and rambled at my sponsor.
After a significant time had past she stopped me
And asked--with a tone in her voice--
Why are you calling me?
Startled I replied, for your advice?
Are you sure that’s why you called?
Because I can give you my advice
But I have given advice to you before
And received only a severe case of the
Yeah Buts’-----in return.
I was about to say, yeah but, you don’t understand,
When she cleared her throat to quiet me
And continued what she was saying.
Seems to me you want more than a sober ear
You want Magic.
You want me to take your crazy dramatic thinking
Put it in a hat and pull it out formed as all your dreams
And then you want credit for making it happen.
But Kitten, I have news for you I’m not Mr. Roark
And this is notFantasy
Island .
This is sobriety and you can’t just have your way.
This is when I realized I was a dry drunk.
I don’t know what the first signs are
But I do know when your sponsor asks-
And you’re calling me why? The jig is up.
I called and rambled at my sponsor.
After a significant time had past she stopped me
And asked--with a tone in her voice--
Why are you calling me?
Startled I replied, for your advice?
Are you sure that’s why you called?
Because I can give you my advice
But I have given advice to you before
And received only a severe case of the
Yeah Buts’-----in return.
I was about to say, yeah but, you don’t understand,
When she cleared her throat to quiet me
And continued what she was saying.
Seems to me you want more than a sober ear
You want Magic.
You want me to take your crazy dramatic thinking
Put it in a hat and pull it out formed as all your dreams
And then you want credit for making it happen.
But Kitten, I have news for you I’m not Mr. Roark
And this is not
This is sobriety and you can’t just have your way.
This is when I realized I was a dry drunk.
I don’t know what the first signs are
But I do know when your sponsor asks-
And you’re calling me why? The jig is up.
You are reading selections from More Sober on the Way to
Sane and Lines From My Life by Sherrie Theriault
No comments:
Post a Comment