October 11
DENY ONE, DENY THE OTHER
If you want to deny the problem, by necessity you must deny
the solution. Resolving a problem whose
existence is rejected creates a split in the crust of collusion. Oftentimes, the convolution and reconvolution
of addiction causes a bloated roiling mass that rolls through the streets of
sanity. How can a wedge be cut in a
creature so dense? How can I work on
piecing together remedies when I am readily assured by fellow sufferers there
is NO DIS-EASE? Can I trust my personal
depletions? Can I employ faith to a
resolution when faith is utilized to fortify the contagion I’m told doesn’t
exist? But if not faith, what?
Count out all the
buttons in your box.
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Alarm
I have lived life like one long fire drill.
Is there smoke? Not
always, but I fear flames.
The alarm in my head is with me always
and I walk from my life single file and silent.
I don’t move on, this is only a drill,
‘I don’t want to take drastic action, this will pass,’
is my constant thought,
though, I can not remember a time without the buzz.
I have stood outside my life so long
practicing in case of an emergency
that there is no life to protect.
I have been conscientious to the point
of being consumed by caution.
Balance requires risk.
I must be brave enough to have it all.
You are reading selections from Sober on the Way to Sane
and More Lines From My Life by Sherrie Theriault
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