December 11
TAPERS
I wax poetic and burn the candle at both ends. I borrow from the beginning, I steal from the
end, coming up short and feeling deeply cheated. I pass myself off as the time-keeper but am
the time-pleaser, arch-traitor selling short the days and hours for approval,
not fulfillment. I put away my true
identity: mammal, human, the love of; I have exchanged it for the mask and cape
of the Do-do-doer, a tragic figure of myth and legend who breaks the spirit of
everyone who attempts the portrayal. In
spite of this the roads teem with actors becoming caricatures of a life less
lived. The world is more than a stage,
and I must free powers greater than I to be more than an audience.
Laugh at old jokes
and tell new ones.
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Whose Oxygen Mask goes on First?
Desperation is the fuel which forges my resentments.
When I fear for my survival,
physical, emotional or financial
this will turn my response to your behavior into tinder,
sometimes gasoline and set our interaction ablaze.
Melt all which is steel strong between us
and create a molten mess
from which it will be a struggle to recover.
This is why,
taking good care of me,
attending to my life, and quelling my fears
is the very best way for me to protect you
from my attitude and save me
from a negative balance sheet during my 10th
step.
You are reading selections from Sober on the Way to Sane
and More Lines From My Life by Sherrie Theriault
