And This Is For What?

February 3

AND THIS IS FOR WHAT?

I smiled down on God and said, “This is pretty and what is it for?”

“Oh, that’s your life. It is a surprisingly useful thing to have.” My Higher Power, like my sponsor, thinks she is funny but she is not.

“What am I supposed to do with it?”

“Who do you think I am, your mother, your Grandpa Joe, your guidance counselor? I put all the possibilities in you then I let the wind blow. What would be the fun of coming here if I gave it to you all mapped out? Did it occur to you the reason people say ‘you are right where you are supposed to be’ is because you did the things that brought you here, not Me, and if you don’t like it here you are the one who needs the motivation to change it.”

“Take my life............Please.”

“You are such a comedian!”

“No, that’s your department, and could you stop tending your garden for five minutes and give me your attention?”

“I don’t need to give you that kind of attention. You bloom on your own.”

Age with curiosity.

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The Inside Half

I have drunk deeply from the glass set before me.

I’m not entirely sure that I am half way through,

but I am into it a goodly bit.

I would be happy to have another 19 years;

nineteen more hours would be a gift, too.

That glass might be half empty

but I am at least half full and I am amazed!

I am regularly stunned by the prodigies

this half trek has born to term;

equally dazzled by how quickly the generations

compound in this painstaking construction.

Development both internal and assembled

surpasses my wildest imaginings.

Amazement is my most constant companion,

more than gratitude

and as of late even outstripping willingness

my most trusted ally.

Shock has been replace by wonder,

bewilderment with surprise,

I am fortified with these feeling realities

and look happily to finishing the rest

of what is in that glass.