Networks

May 28

NETWORKS

Testing my sponsor when I’m hurt is like probing for gas with a lit cigar in my mouth.  If I can’t find a way to douse the cheroot before posing my questions it’s guaranteed I will get an explosive response.  I need a network; they follow me with sand, snatch from me my burning pacifier and save me from sticking my smoldering end where it doesn’t belong.  We all need a little excitement in our lives but I don’t have to become an incendiary device to fill that need.  I forget that boring isn’t the same as death; it just feels that way.  Some days, distance prevents disaster; a good support system carries me away to face it on another day.

Don’t be afraid to turn the kaleidoscope.

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RAID !!!

So, you stepped into a hornets nest

and now how am I to respond?

Blame you, no, I don’t think so,

I mean you are the exterminator

and some stings are to be expected,

but this is far beyond even your honed ability

to anticipate wasps.

Cry, running from this ambush?

Again, I decline

I still want you after the war is over,

even if I can not fight by your side.

Protest, I try to refrain,

I never want to make your job harder

but I don’t want to leave the impression

I have no concern, so I walk the fine line.

Standing on the sidelines is harder than you think,

I am helpless and lonely,

not as exciting as your work

and no comfort from this distance.

I must hold my breath

while you provoke the bees.